by Jackie King
Once upon a time I could jump out of bed, slip into jeans and a
T-shirt and be ready to go. I could even skip makeup if I wanted. But times
have changed. Getting dressed in the morning has become a complicated thing.
First of all I have to sit on the side of the bed and stare into space for a
few minutes. I call this ruminating.
This ruminating, or pondering or musing or reflecting, can get
out of hand, especially for a writer. Every fleeting thought about the past has
a way of morphing into some sort of a story; and there’s so little time
available to anyone at any age that careful selections have to be made.
Which idea would be most interesting to readers? Who should I
choose for my protagonist (aka hero/heroine), I ask myself. And how could I
bump off those folk who annoyed me most? Hummm?
For a young male protagonist I think of a boy I met one winter
when my mother was teaching in Telluride, Colorado. That was back in the
fifties (and yes, I am that old!). In an emotional moment my mother, who was a
gifted teacher but had little patience with fools, had resigned her current
position in a small railroad town in Oklahoma. This was where I had survived my
junior high years and its stereotypical mean girls and boys. I was so ready
to leave. So we traveled by bus to Colorado.
~~~~~
No one could help falling in love with Telluride. It was nestled
at the foot of the Rocky Mountains and you had to leave town on the same road you entered. I also fell in love with the people who lived there: miners
mostly. My best friend’s dad was a chemist with a drinking problem. Once he
came home at night and peed on their black, cast iron stove. It sat in the
living room and heated most of the downstairs.
But I digress.
The boy was named Robert, and I thought he would make a great hero in
my story. He was sort of a tall Harry Potter type, glasses and all, and I had a
huge crush on him. Unhappily for me, he already had a girlfriend. His parents
had more money than most and he got the first contacts I had ever heard about.
That was back before the technology was perfected, and these were glass,
cumbersome, and I was told, uncomfortable. The kids called him “Bubbles,” so he
got embarrassed and ditched the expensive gadgets. I’ve always wanted to use
him in a story.
I’d have a bit of trouble with the villain, though. I can’t think
of anyone in Telluride in 1953 that I wanted to murder. Guess I’d have to
transplant one of the mean boys from the railroad town we had left. I know just
who it would be. An odious boy who raced past me in seventh grade, pausing a
second to make a grab at my groin area. One of the most humiliating moments of
my young life. Oh yes, he’d make a perfect antagonist. (i.e. bad guy). Or maybe
I could even murder him on paper?
All of these thoughts passed through my mind before I slipped into
my fuzzy slippers and trundled off to start my morning toilette. And people
think us oldies live dull lives.
Little do they know.
This is the first time I’ve told anyone this tale. Not even my mother or my sister. Too embarrassed, I
suppose. Sad isn’t it? That naughty boy was the one who should have been
mortified.
~~~~~
Think back through your own growing up and tell me the secret
humiliation that you’ve never shared with anyone. My readers and I will never
tell.
Hugs,
Jackie
2 comments:
I don't know if I was (am?) particularly thin-skinned or simply a series of accidents waiting to happen but there are so many memories that bring a wholesale flush of embarrassment that I prefer to keep them suppressed. But you're right, Jackie, they do provide material and I've used several books and short stories to exact highly satisfying revenges.
If only people knew they would never pick on a writer or a writer-to-be. Loved your comment.
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